tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-823549861851853736.post8747935804963332023..comments2023-08-05T07:19:13.900-07:00Comments on Missing Maxie: ChristmasAbby Levisshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15748394086960661826noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-823549861851853736.post-89418293127191671412012-12-21T18:29:34.117-08:002012-12-21T18:29:34.117-08:00Last year was our first Christmas without our Alex...Last year was our first Christmas without our Alexander - it was actually okay. I was about 3 months pregnant, so maybe all the morning sickness, helped me forget to be sad. But this year, we have a beautiful 6 month old girl (she was born a week before Alexander's birthday - so she is the same age he was for his first Christmas.) People told me the second year was worse - I didn't think it could be true but it is. People say "You have Julia this year - it will be wonderful" but no, it isn't. It isn't wonderful to not have my boy with us - it isn't wonderful that he isn't all excited about Santa this year. It isn't wonderful that he isn't teaching his baby sister all about Christmas. <br />I didn't want to even put the tree up this year - but I am glad we did - I think it has helped a little, as much as I would prefer to crawl into a hole and die some days. <br />I am tying to be happy for my daughters first Christmas but it is so hard when I have such a broken heart.<br /><br />Nancy<br /><br />http://thecookiegal.wordpress.com/2012/12/13/tough-days/Nancynoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-823549861851853736.post-60706643316799737772012-12-20T20:06:07.601-08:002012-12-20T20:06:07.601-08:00This is very thoughtfull Abby. You are so sweet a...This is very thoughtfull Abby. You are so sweet and ur understanding of people's feelings goes beyond. I too don't celebrate Christmas even though we are christians. We commemorate Jesus death in the spring- Passover. It is a very special time for us. Jayden's outfit was ready for it in April but he never made it to it. It was so painful. I hope once the spring comes we can breathe a little easier. And your advice is what I need stay in my PJ's all day sounds comforting in some way. Love, Kira Jayden's Mommyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05687674253192563095noreply@blogger.com