Over it....

What is your worst fear?  The thing that, if it happened, would ruin your life?  Just the very idea of this thing happening is too much to even think about.  It will never happen to you so you don't need to think about it.  It happened to me!  Somehow I am still struggling with people who think that I need to move on. I hope this will be the last time that I write about this.  Really.  If it makes you happy to know, I am seeing a grief counselor, a Licensed Clinical Social Worker.  She has an office, next to a hospital.  She works with the families of terminally ill children.  She knows that what I am feeling is "normal" for someone who has been through what I have been through.  Other people who have been where I have been ASSURE me that the advice of "getting over it" or "moving forward" is well meaning but that I should ignore it as best I can because they do not know.  You all do not know.  Understand me.  Believe me.  You think you know and you think you are trying to give me advice that is in my best interest.  YOU DO NOT KNOW.  Anyone who has been as unfortunate as us to actually know, would never give this advice.  I am not responding to it anymore.  I will not let it upset me more than I am already upset.  It is too much.