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Monday, April 27, 2015

Since losing Maxie, I have been fantasizing about moving away - as if leaving this place could make the pain go away.  We thought about Portland and Seattle and Israel and Hawaii and Costa Rica.  We wanted a fresh start, an adventure, and some place where we didn't have to worry about driving past Maxie's daycare, the ER, or the cemetery every time we left the house.

As time has passed, we've realized that no matter where we are - we won't be able to leave the pain behind.  For a long time, that put our search on hold....until now.  We are moving - soon!   A new adventure for me in a new place - a new adventure for Ted in an old familiar place.  It is starting to feel real.  I am really excited and also so so sad.

I am sad to leave this familiar place that I've spent most of my life in.  This town that everyone loves to hate is a place that I love to love.  I've always loved LA.  Always, always.  I get why people don't like it - traffic, superficial Hollywood people.....uh, traffic.  But I love the sunshine, the beach, the mountains, the canyons, the endless list of places to eat, drink and play.  Most of that has felt pretty empty for a long time, but I will still miss it.

I will miss friends and family and special places and old traditions. Of course we will visit, but it won't be the same. 

Despite all this, I'm really excited - really. Look out East Coast! Here we come!


10 comments:

Kate said...

The East Coast will be glad to have you! Maya and I will come visit you guys in June before we leave D.C.

p.s. I was so sorry to hear about Jakey, hadn't realized it until Paul posted that adorable pic of him yesterday. He was such a sweet dog.

Jayden's Mommy said...

Abby this is so awesome news. The east coast welcomes you with big open arms. That's fantastic news can't wait to actually visit. We live exactly an hour and 45 mins away. I love the picture of the wonderful 3 blessings. Always remember Maxie. And his memory will always be with you. Much love. Kira

Abby Leviss said...

Kira and Kate - I would love visits from both of you!!!! Xoxo

Kimberly Bonheim Birbrower said...

We will miss you a lot. 💔

Joslyn Crowe said...

So amazing that you'll be closer to NYC! We can finally have playdates! Can't wait for you to get here. Let me know if there's anything I can do to help out

Samantha Lennon said...

Good luck for your transition, Abby! Beautiful words and sentiments as always from your posts. -- Sam

Sonia Rousseau said...

I am happy for you! .. but sad for us, I had planned to eventually drive up and see you at Maxie's benefit.. alas not the case, but I wish you all the best with your move!! Sonia xxx

Abby Leviss said...
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Abby Leviss said...

You are ON Scrubber!!!

Abby Leviss said...

I will miss you too!

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