There are things in this life that are so hard, you wonder how you will ever make it through. I am going through one of those now. I am being used and manipulated and my feelings have been completely disregarded. I feel sick and sad and more than anything - I wish I was sitting at home with Ted and Maxie and Mo. And I keep thinking that if I can wait just a little while longer - it will be worth it. But the other part of me says - trust nobody!!! You are a sucker if you do!  I'm missing Maxie like crazy today. There is an empty hole in my heart today that is screaming his name. Screaming! I just want to go home. I just want to go home! 


Anonymous said...

I am having one of those days too today. I miss my little girl so much. Have been on the brink of tears all week. I am home, spending time with my other little girl and hubby and my heart still aches. This despair I am feeling is really unbearable. Wish I had some words of advice or comfort but I got nothing.

Taryn said...

You sound miserable, in addition to heartbroken. That's just cruel. I'm SO sorry! I want you to know there are people out here in the world who think you are brilliant, intuitive, honest, funny, strong, devoted, and full of the kind of love that knows NO bounds. In short, we think you're wonderful! I wish life would just give you a freaking break! Sending you good vibes and hugs!

robyn said...

i am so sorry abby. i am sorry that things didn't work out. i am sorry that it left you feeling like this. and most of all, i am sorry that you suffer the biggest heartbreak of all not having maxie here with you.
i love you.