Heaven in my lap

Maxie felt like heaven in my lap.  He was so well behaved and cuddly.  I loved being able to whisper in his ears, to rest my cheek on his head, to put my arms around him, to kiss the back of his neck, to smell his sweet baby scent.  My arms are empty.  My lap is too light.  My baby's scent is missing and gone.  His absence is ever-present.  Maxie was heaven in my lap.  Maxie was heaven.






My little baby boy - there is nowhere I'd rather be, there is nobody I'd rather be with - than with you, right now.  You are my heart, you are my light, you are my joy.  You are the best thing that ever happened to me.  I miss you more with every minute of every day.  You are my love, love.  Life's too hard without you - my perfect, sweet, easy, beautiful baby boy.

10 comments

greg said...

He was so beautiful Abby. Just. Perfect.

Susan Ireland said...

Yes. Beautifully put x

Marla said...

What beautiful pictures. I always thought by his smile that he had an old soul. I love you guys. You are always in my thoughts.

Rose said...

I love these pictures of you and Maxie together. Such a beautiful baby-- and you so lovely. xoxo

NikaM said...

I love those cheeks.

Tiffany said...

he is amazing! i'm so sorry he is no longer with you.

jkbrumbaugh@gmail.com said...

Handsome little man. XOXO

Robyn said...

Maxie was such a beautiful boy in every way. He is and always will be missed and remembered.

anon said...

You can see how much he loved his mum. Hugs.

Erika said...

What a little sweetie. I miss him too.