This one day

I woke up this morning with a heavy feeling of sorrow - there are times when the burden of losing Max feels so unbearable I can hardly stand being in my own skin.  Then I thought about Jake.  I am taking him to the oncologist this morning.  It all feels like too much.  I can't breathe.

But, then I remembered that I just have to make it through this one day.  That is all.  Just this one day.  I'll deal with tomorrow tomorrow.  I can't even think about it now, let alone think about living the rest of my life without Max.  It's way too heavy of a burden to carry.

I snuggled up to Mo and gave him at least 1,000 kisses and then just tried to breathe.  I can get through this one day.


Mimi said...

I'm sorry to hear you're having a rough day. Hug.

Egreeno said...

That day is over but I know every day brings its own challenges. I'm so sorry that you have to make it through so many days without Maxie!! It's completely unfair and nonsensical. Sending you and Ted and Mo and Jakey and Layla all my love.