Maxie's last photo

Thursday, July 19, 2012


This is the last photo taken of our Max.  A snapshot of my former life.  My two happy boys, goofing around together.  Maxie so joyful, being held by his doting dad.  My husband, a proud and much more innocent and happy young father.  My two greatest loves.  This is how I will always remember the best days of my life. 

It has been one year since the last time I hugged my baby tight, fed him breakfast, kissed his sweet face, carried him into daycare on my hip and said goodbye.  Every day is an eternity without him.  Every day, I am one day closer to being with him again.

Maxie, you are the most wonderful blessing my life has ever known.  I love you.

Love,
Mommy

14 comments:

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you and maxie today, as I do everyday. God he is beautiful. I follow you everyday and your writing brings me to my knees. Begging for peace for you and your boys in the days to come.

Shaunna J

Taryn said...

I am so sad for you and your family. I cannot hold back the tears when I imagine what a loss it is that your beautiful baby has been gone from this world for one whole year. What a sweet, perfect, amazing baby. What a loss. I am so sincerely sorry. I truly hope that your heart can be treated gently right now and that you can feel the love of your angel baby near.

Taryn said...

P.S. that is an absolutely magical photo. I think it speaks volumes...what a treasure.

jessica said...

I am sending you and Teddy all of my love and strength today. I am remembering and loving your beautiful boy. This is one of my favorite photos of Maxie and his loving, adoring Daddy. I am so very sorry that you have had to live through this last year without your greatest love. May the next 3 days pass as gently as possible. Maxie will be loved and remembered always. xo

Xxoo said...

thinking of you at such an enormously painful and evocative time. what a beautiful baby and family. very sorry you have to go through this.

Bryan Tobin said...

Thinking of you, Ted, and especially Max over these next few days. This is so unfair.

Sarah P. said...

Hi Abby,
I've been thinking of you so much over the past several days - in anticipation of this day and the next 2 days. It is so wrong that he is not here getting ready to become a big brother with you and Ted. That photo is so beautiful and so heart breaking. It brings tears to my eyes - you can just tell what an AWESOME and special little guy he was. You are in my thoughts so much. I hope you are hanging on ok. xoxoxo from a complete stranger :)

Ronja said...

Just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you, your husband and most of all of beautiful Maxie today. I pray that Maxie will come visit you in your dreams tonight.

Rose said...

Thinking of you today more than ever. Sending love and strength and empathy to you and Ted-- and hopes that, as Jessica said, the next three days pass as gently as can be. I held Max only once, when he was a sweet newborn, so wonderfully perfect and peaceful. In this gorgeous picture, he shows the same beautiful spirit. I will hold the memory of Maxie in my heart, every day.

NikaM said...

I've been thinking of you a lot this week. I wish I could give you a big hug, even though I know it won't make anything better.

Sonia said...

I'm so sorry and don't know what to say except that I'm thinking of you all. As the previous posts say, I hope these next few days are as gentle as they can be. My heart is with you Abby. Sending warm thoughts and love, Sonia x

Kathleen said...

I do not have any right words...hand on my heart and sending comfort the NE. Beautiful baby boy in his blue - could be for the Yankees or Big Blue : )

Maggiehillward said...

Thinking of you, Ted and Maxie today. Wanted to send my love.
love,
Maggie

Anne Nilsson said...

Once again I read your beautiful, heartbreaking words with tears streaming down my face. This photo truly captures all the light and love of this magic little guy. I wish I had met him, and could have held him. What stories I always heard about how special he was, and in EVERY single photo that is obvious and true. May you indeed have a gentle week so that your heart and soul survive and thrive. My thoughts are with you and Ted and Maxie and Baby M.

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