In my heart

Friday, November 16, 2012

Sometimes it feels like it never happened...like he was never here....like he never died.  Some of the people almost act like it was all a bad dream.  Like it was bad dream that is over now.  Life moves on...only it hasn't for me.  My heart is still with Max.  He WAS here!  He was loved tremendously, with my whole soul.  He was and is just as important as every other child....just as important as Mo and all of their cousins.  Don't you remember who Max was?  His sweet smile?  His drooley lips, his chubby thighs?  Don't you remember how he could tell you if he was happy or sad or hungry with his eyes?  Don't you remember how he had a funny little sense of humor and liked to be held and kissed?  Don't you remember his gigantic smile.  I don't understand - he's not here but he isn't gone.  I can hardly live without him.  He is in my heart.  Isn't he in your heart too?


9 comments:

Egreeno said...

Forever Maxie will be in my heart! I know he is on the minds and in the hearts of so many people around the world, those who had the privilage to know him in person and many whole have gotten to know him through your blog. He's never going to be forgotten and I pledge to help you keep his memory alive however and where ever I can.

jessica said...

He is, and will always be in my heart. Your precious boy is unforgettable an your love and bond will never go away or be forgotten. Maxie was here, he is important and he will never be forgotten. xo

Tamar said...

Maxie is definitely in my heart. I think about him every day and more than anything wish he was physically here with the rest of his family.

Bianca said...

I fell in love with Maxie before he was even born and more once I got to meet him and know his adorableness. I expected to watch him grow and thrive for the rest of my life and am heartbroken that I don't get to know him as a boy and man. It's complete madness, there is no way to make sense of such a sweet and special person not being here. He is in my heart always and will not be forgotten.

greg said...

So unfair that he isn't still here with you, with us, with everyone. But he IS in our hearts and always will be. He will not be forgotten Abs. No way.

Britt M. said...

I think about Maxie every day. I think about the pain you and Ted continue to endure and the hope that Mo has given you. Trust, though, that Maxie will NEVER be forgotten. Every moment of his life mattered. Every moment you had with him counted. He will always be your precious baby boy and I will never forget that.

Eliza said...

I'm so so sorry that he is not with you. It is horribly unfair. Such a beautiful photo.

robyn said...

that smile, lovely demeanor and happy little guy will never be forgotten. i am blessed to have gotten a chance to meet him and will never forget the special boy that he was.

Jenny Romanowski said...

He has changed my heart forever! I know there are many who will tell you this but I have a feeling the people you wish to here this from are not the ones expressing this to you. They never will! You have to find your way around these people. Know who the important ones are and let the rest fall away! I know very easy to say very hard to do! We're all rooting for you! Your time your way that's all that matters! Screw everyone else..there not there when you close your door at night! My thoughts are always with you..your constant reader.

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