My Cuddly Max

Maxie was a cuddler.  He was warm and sweet and loving to everyone who wanted to love him.  I wanted to share these photos of Maxie that I love.  One photo with me, a few of Maxie with Ken (K-pa), my mom's boyfriend, and a few with our friend Rob.  This is exactly how I picture myself with Maxie before I fall asleep at night.  It is why my arms feel empty all day long.  I miss him so much.


Bianca said...

I love how he does that little lean in with his head, it is so loving, trusting and snuggly. That is how I think of you two, Maxie leaning in to your chest and you kissing his head. He was always in your arms when I saw you together, both of you so happy, and I can not believe he is not there now, in your arms, where he belongs. My heart aches for you, sweetie, and I am so sorry that Maxie is not here with us now.

Anonymous said...

I love his round little head with those round little eyes. I've neve seen anything cuter. Looking at this I have serious questions about faith and fairness and how could this have happened. This happens to other people. People who deserve it. Not people who dedicate their life to serving others and adoring their baby. You did not deserve this, and Max was robbed.

Jessica said...

I love seeing Max in snuggle mode. Even the first day that Bianca and I met him at the hospital and picked him up to cuddle him, he loved the snuggle! This is how I picture the two of you together as well - you holding Maxie and the two of you snuggling, blissful looks on both of your faces. I am so sorry that your arms are empty and that Maxie is not here. What a beautiful, perfect boy.

Kirstin O'Gorman said...

Dear Abby: I went to school with Teddy and although we were not in the same circle of friends in high school, we have many mutual friends, and I remember Ted as being just a great guy. I would like to thank you for being so brave and allowing us into your love story with Maxie. I never had the pleasure of meeting your beautiful boy, but through your blog I feel that I have grown to not only know him, but also to love him. Your entrees are so beautiful. I read them, wipe my tears and keep reading. I can feel your love for Maxie and I want so much to reach out and hold you. I am grateful that you have Teddy and a warm group of people who will walk alongside you through one of life’s most difficult experiences. I can’t pretend to know how you feel; I can only imagine your pain. When Maxie died, a part of you died with him. Something a mother should never have to experience. Please keep writing, please keep sharing Maxie with all of us. You inspire me to be a better person, to stop and think and most of all to embrace my blessings. Maxie is so lucky to have you as his mommy. No matter what the future holds, Max will always be your first love, your first baby and your lifelong guardian angel. He is part of your heart and soul, and, you will always be Maxies mommy even though he lives in heaven now.
“If there ever comes a day when we can’t be together, keep me in your heart, I’ll stay there forever”. Winnie the Pooh
Warm love,
Kirsitn from Fairfield Connecticut