If you wondered why I ever left early or didn't come at all, it's because I wanted to be with Max instead. If you thought it was rude that I left your wedding shower, baby shower, engagement party or wedding early, it's because I wanted to go home and play with my baby. If you thought I was being selfish about not wanting to put on an event for work that I didn't think had much potential - you were right, I was. I wanted to be with Max. If you wondered why I didn't have a good excuse about why I couldn't make your Christmas party, your Halloween party, your Fourth of July party...now you know. Were you curious why I left book club, or your dinner party before the fun really started? Now you know. Remember when you suggested that I bring Max along to go out to eat, get away for the weekend, or meet up at the park? I was thinking about his naps and his bedtime and that is why I said no. Maybe you already knew this. Maybe you didn't understand. In retrospect, I am more sorry for the time I missed with Max than for the times I said no. I wish I could turn back the clock and say no to everyone I ever said yes to. I don't regret doing stuff but I am glad I mostly declined the invitations. I would give anything for one more hour, one more minute, one more second. I spend every hour, every minute, every second, wishing I was sitting here watching him sleep or with him in my lap. Anyway, I've been wanting to explain, so now you know.
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